Dear Scott, I haven't written here in over a month so let me start by saying "FUCK YOU!" There's a Dixie Chicks song I've been singing a...

Dear Scott, I miss you so much. My whole life was set into a tumble the day you died. I can't believe that God creates us in such a way...

Dear Scott, I don't blog that much anymore, but I do think about you constantly. I was sitting in the living room this morning working...

Dear Scott, It seems easier when I don't blog, like I can somehow just stuff it all down inside and not feel. But I talk to you...

Dear Scott, It's been 26 weeks - half a year. I didn't think I would make it through this day, but I have. I have tried my best not to...

Dear Scott, I try not to think about you. I know if you were still alive this would sound cruel. But don't worry - it doesn't work. But...

Dear Scott, I haven't blogged in almost two weeks. These last weeks have been incredibly hard. I do my best to try to not think about...

Dear Scott, Today is especially hard with you being gone. This is my first Christmas without you since 2002.  I have cried so much this...

Dear Jesus, It feels odd to title this post with the number of days since he died. I don't think about it that way recently. It's been...

Dear Jesus, Yesterday was hard. Today is not a whole lot better. I think the impending Christmas holiday is already adding stress. I am...

Dear Scott, Christmas is just around the corner. The house looks so bleak with no decorations, no gifts, no stockings. I just can't...

Dear Jesus, Week 18 has not been that great. I feel a sadness right on the surface; I am managing better though. My team adjusted my...

Dear Scott, Today would have been your 53rd birthday. After your autopsy, the medical examiner told me you were in great physical health....

Dear Jesus, I started crying this morning as soon as my knees hit the floor to pray. I knew today would be hard. It is. I am so thankful...

Dear Jesus, I had one of my night terrors last night. This hasn't happened since Scott died. When I finally was fully awake, I started...

Dear Jesus, I'm tired today. I tossed and turned all night long thinking about Scott. For some reason, I keep imagining him holding the...

Dear Scott, Yesterday was 16 weeks since you've been gone. I feel lost without you. I will carry your suicide with me for the rest of...

Dear Jesus, It is supposed to get easier, I over the last couple of days I have spent so much time crying and thinking about Scott. I...

Dear Jesus. Yesterday was rough. As soon as I got home, I just fell apart. I cried for hours. A friend offered to come sit and talk with...

Dear Jesus, Scott's been dead 15 weeks. When I was leaving church today, I started wondering what was going through his mind as he left...